Keep going

Yesterday was not a good day either. “No more laptop for student to loan” uh, its not fun at all to attend class without a laptop. Due to some happening in the class in the morning make me feels like going home. “Its not a big deal” make us @#$%^&*(. After two messages we are back to normal. I would like to thank CHERYL for your laptop. Thanks you so muchhhh.. you are there when I need you. muackk.. =)

Moral support from Andrea, Sheryl, Dina, Dennis, Dear and many more if I forgot to mention here, thanks.

After school , I met up with Cheryl to return her the laptop. I didn’t know where to go. I went to the photocopy shop and saw Andrea, Kenneth and Dennis there. I was really glad, and stay with them and help them to count papers. If without them, I will be going home myself emoing. *haha. *hughug.

Haha. =)

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

Bad day

It’s a bad day. Ut was alright, if there is more time it will better. My laptop create problem in the morning. I was badly affected by it. Finally you gave me hope (Carry for you to causeway), I felt so blessed. I even tell myself that you are great and thanks for being there. But I’m wrong. I was too silly. Before the UT end, phone started to vibrate. “Leaving school already with friends.” Uh. What went wrong? Fight shouldn’t happen for today, but it can’t to avoid. WHY? I don’t understand. WHY friends? I was angry and at the same time heart broken. XIN HAO TONG, ZHEN DE. I carried and walked alone to the interchange. People that starred at me, I can’t blame them. It normal for people to think ad wander why this gal is not keeping her laptop when her screen appear to be blank. It doesn’t feel good to walk alone with that kind of emotions. Is it called retribution? Just because I laughed at someone that was being left behind by the partner, I was being punished the same way. Lots of thoughts appear in my mind when I am walking alone to the interchange, am I at fault again? Can I be angry, do I have the right to be angry? If I am angry am I too petty? Can you don’t do such thing again to me, it doesn’t make me feel good at all. I might be not understanding, not reasonable, and immature. But I love you.

I got to borrow a laptop for class tomorrow. I’m having UT tomorrow as well. It wasn’t nice. Not at all. I felt as in I’m a.l.o.n.e.

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~