How much do you feel for me? Having to know that i am not feeling well and having loads of works to do during the second meeting is so terrible for me. Things are just no longer the same. waiting in the canteen every morning for you regardless of what is what i look forward for every morning. Sometime, i am late for school, you wouldn't know how much i had put on anger on him. Be it being late for class, unable to meet you, he being late when meeting me. All these add up does not seem to be a good morning / a good start. that day when i was super late for school, i thought it would be nice if you just msg me and tell me that you went up to class first, i wouldn't mind, you know. Though its just a small action that is overlooked, its still means a lot to me.

Actually there's a lot that i want write, but i think its pointless as you had already come up with your own assumption and conclusion that i belong to that kind of people. do not just look at the surface but finding out the reason behind it before making a conclusion.

Listening to the song, and feeling emo. I am currently very emo, very suddenly. I had a very bad headache since yesterday, the reason I do not know why. I want to visit the doctor because I am afraid. That me, my personality, I believe that there is definitely something someone is afraid of, for me it will be the doctor. I wasn’t feeling alright today. What is wrong with me, I do not know. Some kind of stress just land on me, I know that certain stress is always there and it will sometime serves as a motivation for me to move on and be strong. However, its time round, its doesn’t serves that purpose. Why am I doing so many things?

The more I want to do things perfectly well; it tends to turn out bad. Be it friendship, relationship, school work, tuition and personal stuffs. I tried really hard, is it really because my expectations for everything are too high? Or am I just simply not fated to get things done nicely, and I am only fated to see people getting things done beautifully. I know there is a saying about we can’t compare to others, just be ourselves it will be the best. But personally I believe that having to compare can be a good thing as well, I don’t denied that when I am in secondary school, I used to compare myself with a good student. I don’t believe that I am that bad and I tried very hard and work extra hard in class, remedial lesson, test and exam. Finally I managed to prove to myself that I am able to do it and really she served as my motivation to work really hard because I do not want to lose to her. I DO NOT DENY that.

. Yes, I’m confused with a lot of things. I am faced with similar problem. I am really glad that I had discovered some friends that believe and really understand and know me.

Thanks to denniz, dina, miao and dear for being concern about what happen to me. Thanks, it means a lot to me, thanks especially to dina and denniz, the two Ds. love my friends

I might be nothing to you people, but you people means a lot to me.

well. nothing to blog actually. I'm stress with so much things. I long wanted to get things done too fast but at the end , I'm just stressing myself. I want PP to be done soon; i want to have more tuition; i want to get that sony ericssion phone; i want to get good daily grade; i want to get a good GPA ; i want to slim down ;
time is what i need. haiz.

as time passes by, the level of importances for that thing seem to decrease. i can't imagine the future. action might not be needed, but at least the thoughts??

take things lightly ba, joyci !!

I'm currently in class , doing nothing. I am sick. haiz. , hungry.

New class, new classmates, new facilitators. The class is alright, hmm.. perhaps theres more to find out . Time will prove me right !!

OHman.. Joyci need motivation from herself and from the surrounding. !!! jia you . jiayou.
Thanks for the motivation from Denniz. !! =) smile..

I can do it.

I want to get the 580Ii phone!!!! i am serious ! I am going to get it in 2 months time. YEA!!!

I am going to save money and save up my tuition pay to get that. :)

PP is doing fine.

=)
love love love dear lots.

OH ya.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIAO LINGGG!!!!!
~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

last day of holiday was so disappointing.

very very disappointed.

i plan , i waited but still .. .. .

it was a bad day yesterday. It hadn't been good anyway.

Today is the last day of our hoilday, hopfully i am able to spend my day fruitfully. :)

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Days, actions and everything had proven that the friendship is going no where. One can compromise to all, All can compromise to one. But how long can ' one ' and 'all' hold on. I will continue to see what i can do and just to make the best out of it, but there's a saying its takes two hands to clap. Even though one may dislike , but there's nothing that is going to stop me to the other. I will just be myself and i believe that ' one will deserve , what he/she will deserve' .

An alright day. I went to teach tuition at around 7 plus. While I am teaching, i felt as if im sick. EARTHQUAKE neh ! initially i thought its my problem so i didn't actually voice it out and ask my student about it. But after some time, i heard the student's parent talking about it in the kitchen. I then realize that its not my problem, it is really shaking. This is really my first time experiencing it.
My student's parents decided to go down stair and so am I. I was freak up initially because we are the only block that went down though the rest felt the quake as well. *haha.
WHAT AN EXCITING NIGHT? wasted im not at home together with my parents because i bet it will be super funny. (:

When to meet dear dear for a while and went home.

smile..

~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~

im seriously bored.

It’s the third week of holiday. Time pass really fast. When to genting with rena and janis, catching up with some old friends, doing pp and being a tutor are all I had done in this holiday.

New class is out, it happen to have so many people to be in the same class as me. Kind of sad that dina is not one of them, my dear girl. However, I will still visit her when I am free. I will be looking forward to meet my new classmates. ( I will)

I miss dear dear lots, seriously.

10,11,12 .. what’s up with this three days man. So many of my friends or having their chalet, including miao and my dear. Argg. Hahaha. So funny.

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~