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27/02/07
Today is my only off day for the week. Yesterday, I was really tired. I didn't managed to sleep well. I forgot to buy something and dear got it for me. So after his work he have to cycle from his place to my place to pass it to me. I really thank him from my bottom of my heart. He was so tired and yet he got to pass it to me. I brought him burger king. *hmm. that was around 12 am. I was tired and i got to wake up at 5 plus and left the house at 6 plus. My father send me to work. Yesterday, I went to work at carlton hotel at 8 am until 3pm. after that i got to go true yoga work from 4 to 9 . I was late for work. It was so tiring. I didn't have a chance to have a good meal. I miss dear badly yesterday. I went home and slept . It was a very tiring day.


28/02/07
today, I woke up at 11plus am. I went to dear house den went to meet rena and hui for lunch. Nothing much happen today. Just that i never really rest well for the day. Tomorrow , i have got to work. Give flyers and also CSO. I introduced the flyers job to rena and hui. After lunch , we went to walk around. And I went home after that. Me and rena was wondering if we went to but toto or 4d but the queue was super scary. It was super long and so we gave up and say next time. *haha.

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Everyday its ok. I was rather disappointed that i didn't manage to go to the class chalet of mine. Really sorry that i didn't manage to join them. Sorry CHYE!!! i guess i broke my promise this time round.

~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~

happening

Who really understand how I feel? I felt that I am just as normal as other girls, there are not much differences between as, or perhaps I just got extra meat at different parts of my body. uh ? Who on earth don't want to be pretty, beautiful and grab attention by other male/female. I guess when a male/female had created an attention to anyone, it's something that can be considerate to be proud of? Well, I personally felt so, because not everyone can do that. True enough, it is not something whether you can or cannot. Is whether you WANT or DON'T WANT.

We are always surround by this topic, making us sad. What happened yesterday really had impact of me! I understand the point and intentionS of that act. But it's really hurt in someway. I didn't know why i took that so seriously but i guess it is something that lead to it seem to be quite serious as it had been hanging there in the air for sometime that cause conflict between us. To be honest, i felt kind of 'true' in a sense that my fashion sense is lousy as well as my confident is lousy. It's like a cycle isn't it?
confident--> fashion sense-->confident. It's all back to confident.

Confident need to have roots to grow. I do not know if people feel it but i really felt that i had changed a lot. Lots of things i did for the sake of you to prove that i can be better not and no longer a princess. I do have doubts for myself, am i a unreasonable, not understanding and petty gal ! Emo monster live in me, making my life kind of miserable.

Do not expect too much and etc seem to be reason and excuese for myself.

i love him truely and hope that it goes the same for him as well.

But no matter what, i will not give up changing and change for the good. I can do it and i have faith in myself , the most important thing is I got the support from HIM.

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work had been alright! i had make my plans and i will quit when time is up..



~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~

23/02/07
I met jan,rena and hui for lunch . Me and jan went to golden mile and do the towel. I did one for deardear. After that we went for a swim. Dear dear was cute la. =) *haha. I enjoyed myself to the fullest yesterday. We went for dinner and met rena after that. =) I love dear. muack.

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I have no comments. Why am i so tense up when others don't? People at work are jokers. You can't identify who are the real human there and etc. They are simply so fake. Well, i guess people out there will say ''' that's life'''. I miss fireworks, ( watching chingay ). I got to relax, bu shi ma? It been such a long time, i sat down and relax. A quiet environment and nice view.


i miss those times badly.




im bored..


oh ya, today is our anni!! yea!! love dear


~~lailai, yanyan love youuuu~~

a day

I FINALLY GOT MY PAY!! Today i went to bank in my pay and my red packet money. Although it's not a very big sum of money but i really glad i still got the money. I really got to thank dear dear for accompanying me. Today, i brought a pair of jeans.


Being pretty , who doesn't wish to? I got to face the reality that i am FAT , right ? People around me telling me that i am not fat but still you really face the reality the FACT is i am fat. I thank people around me that kept saying ' no , you are not fat'. But who really understand how i actually feel.

I had not been sleeping well nowadays. I didn't know ,why ? *haiz.



deardear , I loveyou ! *muack



~~lailai, yanyan love youuuu~~

SDFG

IM SUPER BORED...

IM SUPER BORED...

qwrt

~14/2/07~
happy V day to all. I had enjoyed myself yesterday to the max. I went to his place to have lunch and pass the gift to him. I hope he love it. I love the flower that he gave me as well as the gift. Thanks dear dear. We went to meet hui,wong and jan at golden mile to ask about the trip to bali. We managed to get some information for the bali trip but we are still under consideration. After that wong went home and whereas jan,hui,dear and me went to suntec. we went separate way after that. dear dear accompanied me to get new year clothes, but i didn't get many too. Dear was really great yesterday. We went to pizza hut and left our name for seats. We went carefour to have walk and etc. Deardear suggested to watch movie so we went to buy tickets first before we went to eat. After that we went pizza hut for dinner, we had a hard time choosing what to eat. *ahaha. But still we chose the want we like and we enjoyed eating.*hee. The dinner was great, i love it. We went to watch movie after that. We went "follow the law". (i think the title is something is like that). It was a nice movie. Dear was laughing when he was watching. when i see him smiling , my heart melts. After movie, we took bus to his house and he send me home.

I really love him and yea. muacks.. :)

~15/2/07~
I woke up early in the morning to prepare myself to meet jan,wong and hui. We are going sentosa today! *haha. The sun wasn't out this morning, intinally i was kind of worried. But the sun was out after sometime. we went to the hawer central to pack chicken rice. It's really yummy. So we went to the beach to settle down eating the chicken rice. When we reached there, they were playing ball and i am sun tanning .*haha. we went to catch fish after that. It was fun and i enjoyed my day very much too. Me,wong and hui went to vivo city to eat and walk and went off after a while.
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Time is running out! when am i getting my pay? I really do not know why they have been delaying our pay for so long. It's just a part timer pay , do they have to really wait for the big big boss to sign the cheque. excuse me ! the big company doesn't have a assistant manager ?? How are we going to spend our new year happily? Back to what i mention in the previous entry! what is the point of me finding a job in the first place? money?? *haiz. i am really disappointed. seriously i have second thoughts with this job. LET me tell the people in there!! The reason why i am still staying in this stupid place is because i still care for the people who are working there as there are really not enough people. I am letting my words out here. If the pay still don't come to me by this month! Sorry to say , i will not work anymore! boss/mangers are suppose to keep their words. Say it when you mean it !

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such a happening in the morning. forget it!!!


yeayea. Joyci got to smile . smile . smile. smile .smile and smile.


why make a big fuss of this little things. doesn't mean it de, that life ma.

Joyci don't be that demanding , chill. demanding wouldn't bring you far. so yea.
"" ...cannot change one's basic character...''''. I love him because of who is he. so yea.



smile smile smile. joyci is strong. Holiday is around the corner. Yuppy. *hee.

lai xing hui, you listened up !! I LOVE YOU !!! .
*hee.. muack. : )



~~lailai , yanyan love youuu ~~

sian

I too tired and bored. I am lazy to blog the past days happening. what i know now is


I miss him.




smile smile.



~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~