This morning was so different. I do not have any motivation to wake up, i and not meeting dear at the bus stop to go school. I board the bus carrying a hope that is impossible to happen.


The meaning of Love. .
Love /lʌv/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[luhv] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, loved, lov·ing.

–noun

1.	a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.

2.	a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.

3.	sexual passion or desire.

4.	a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.

5.	(used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?

6.	a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.

7.	sexual intercourse; copulation.

8.	(initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.

9.	affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.

10.	strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.

11.	the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.

12.	the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.

13.	Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.

14.	a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.

–verb (used with object)

15.	to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.

16.	to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).

17.	to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.

18.	to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.

19.	to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.

20.	to have sexual intercourse with.

–verb (used without object)

21.	to have love or affection for another person; be in love.

there are so many definition of love.

I am feeling tired. Waiting at the bus stop everyday in the morning without fail can be tiring. I have never regret waiting at the bus stop for you; I also do not have the thoughts of giving up waiting for you. When I wake up in the morning, get ready and set off to the bus stop, I know that you will definitely be late, but I still set off as early as 6.55am to go to the bus stop. It is because I do not want you to wait for me when you reach early and because of me WE miss the bus. As time goes by, I realize that it’s a one sided thing. ‘Tired’ this word shut my mouth. I kept telling you that ok; we shall not meet to go school from tomorrow onward. Indeed mouth move only, I had never acted it out. I once again heard from you that the reason why we are meeting is because I want you to. It is not because you want to meet me, is because I wanted to so you meet me in the morning to go school. Seriously, my motive of meeting in the morning is I hope that I can meet you and we can hold hands tightly and go school happily. The other thing is I thought you also wish to meet me early in the morning.

I really do not know what to do. To see you fall asleep in the bus and how tired you are make me super guilty at times.

Thanks for your love. I love you. Thanks for doing a lot of things for the sake of me.

People do change, don't they ?




Kind of sad to realize that it is quite true uh ?

A note to myself......
Joyci got to be stronger cause joyci want to help people , so before joyci want to help people joyci got to be strong. Nothing is going to beat joyci down.
'' Have a big stomach to take in all comment. '' I always remember what you said and wrote for me. Joyci, you are great. You are not as bad as what you think. So cheer up. There are plently outside. Your care, concern and love that you gave people are way too much. It time to keep some for yourself too. :) love myself more then anyone can love me.

stop looking down on JOYCI. If you are one of them that look down on JOYCI , you better stop doing that because you are even worst.

smile and yeayea..


~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~

I really feel very down. Disappointed in myself? Disappointed with my friends? I am really glad that there are really one or two friends for me when I really need them. They might not be your best friend, chatting with them for hours on the phone, going out with them everyday, msging each other everyday and etc.

Not that I want to think negativity, I just cannot settle things myself and do it beautifully. Crying and crying seem to be my daily activities. What can I do to make myself feel good and great? Life short, isn’t? We must treasure our friends and loved one for every single minute, it is important for them to know that you love them and treasure them. I love my friends, but do they love me? I am so sorry and I got to thank some people today.

SORRRY

To my facilitator today- I skip school today

To my parents – I didn’t attend school today and decided to be a bad girl

To my teammates – sorry for not turning up for class

To Spencer – sorry that I couldn’t settle the things well for you and cause so much trouble for you

To Janis – sorry that I am not able to understand the sadness in you to make you feel better.

To Rena – sorry that I brought up the dinner matter up to your attention early in the morning to piss you off.

THANKS

To ruting, Dina, dennise, Shaun – you guys are great. Thank for asking me if I am alright and ask me not to emo. Those small little action had make me feel so pleased.

To Marissa – thanks for being there for me when I need you

I’m worried and scared. No one can really understand how I feel. Why am I going through all this?

Friends are great; I love them because they can make my day. I love them because they allow me to feel different; I love them because some of them treasure me. I love them because I am happy that they are my friends. I love them because they played a part in my life. I love them because they are just so special.

I miss rus!

what can i do ?

Can you understand me? I am sad. i do not know what to say le. haiz. How i wish the holiday can end soon. I don't holiday .. i don't wan ): ):

BOO.

I'm feeling so sick. cough is getting back to worst. every morning i will definity have a hard time talking. ): . My whole body is aching and coughing non stop. haiz.


I feel very uncomfortable. HOw ??? ):


~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

well, what a day today.
PP was alright, i managed to re work it. A big big thanks to Mr Clive, Mr Grain Baysa-Pee, Ru ting, andrea, sam, xue ying and deardear. hmm. maybe i miss out some. but i thank you from my heart.
Thanks to mr clive for helping me editing my pp proposal
Thanks to mr Grain for helping me to find out how to rework and submit and how to focus better.
Thanks to Ru ting for telling me what are the points i have to take note, as we are having the same supervisor. *haha
Thanks to andrea for helping me add more detail and touch up some here and there to make it a nice pp proposal.
Thanks to sam for showing me the proposal that she had done to guide me
Thanks to xue ying for offering her help to teach me step by step how to do and explaining certain meaning to me to make me understand more. She also the first person in class that really helped me in my pp especially today.
Thanks to deardear, that he motivate me to work hard for it by using the hard approach.
class was alright too. A lot of people left the class, i didn't thought that i will be the few remaining ones today staying in the class. Well, well, well..

Looks can be deceiving. well, let fate decide. why bother to look at things that doesn't make you feel comfortable. Asking is one way of making self feeling better but sometime if just do not go the way you hope. Let hope that history doesn't repeat itself and everything will be alright provided, ''open one eye ,close one eye'' is being apply on it.