it wasn't very smooth sailing for me all this while. Stress come from family regarding work, vex because of my HP. Stress and vex come from PP. No mood for school. Haiz. Sad that whatever promise that had been made had been broken. I didn't want to bring it up the actual matter, fight will occur.
Class, yet to discover. Some people just like to act smart and gain attention! Pity them uh ? More to come , i guess.
Last weekend was tiring, Saturday i went to sentosa for the beach volleyball competition. It was an eye opening for me. They are really good players around the world and they have great figures.*ha. I went to do survey for SHL, from morning till evening. Sunday, i have to work in the morning due to some circumstances, so i went to work. It was tiring , i fell asleep when i reached home at 8 plus pm on Saturday. I do not have a choice but to wake up early to work , after work i have to go down to sentosa to catch the finals and do the survey. it ended quite early, so its alright.
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To be true to certain things, i do not like people with good looks , stylish hair and lots of muscle or anything, basically is people with good looks and high education as well as knowing a lot of things. So what if they got all those good points but if a UGLY heart. I would rather make friend
with a normal looking with no stylish hair and etc. At least such people have a beautiful heart.

A fat lady with a handsome guy, both of them are sitting together side by side. The guy is very handsome and he seem to be cool. The lady is fat BUT she belong to the minority that is the beautiful fat. At first , i was thinking why is this guy attached to this girl. If he want he will be able to find a girl with good figure and etc. Well, they might be living happily ever after but one there is he might not want other people to know that SHE is his gf!! After sometime i manage to find out that they are really in a relationship. this might turn out weird, the girl wasn't proud that she got a strong built BF. I didn't know the reason why but the guy seem to proud that she is HIS GF ! The guy admitted that she is my gf but the girl only mention the he is my FRIEND. I was shock. WHY? Is it because the girl doesn't want to throw the guy face?There are too many possible reasons why it turn out to be this situation. THE end ( this is not a real life story, 3/4 of it is real as in the content )

I personally felt that she is kind of blessed, bu shi ma? wellwellwell.

There more to blog. sick and tired of life .


~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

sad.

very uncomfortable.feel like dying le. cannot qu xi .tears going to accumulate and then drop.

No longer strong. I admit i'm weak alright? teach me what to do? guess i need to be alone.

It was really really bad. I really regretted. A big price to pay just because of a small fight. You appeared alright, but i really do not know how you really feel in your heart. I hope you can pour in it to me, or perhaps anyone( i don't care). i hate 22.05.07.


Just woke up not long ago,actually looking forward to this day, can go eat NYDC, but due to some circumstance , it was canceled.

what is smile? I no longer know how to do smile.

~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

life was alright
class is ok
friends are good
family are great
i am so far so good.

janis loveeeees joyjoy too:D:D:D -janjan
LOVE my deardear


18.05.07 is a sucky day. Boo hoo



~~lailai , yanyan love youuuu~~

It was a sucky day today. I dislike today a lot. It's really tough for me .

aiya. eat here la

It's mother's day. Yeah.


HAPPY MAMA DAY!!


All along i thought i did a great job, but somehow i'm wrong. I want to improve myself and etc. Can i do it? Will you always be there to support me improve myself and you? I don't mind how people look at me. I just want you to feel proud of me. Out of 10 times, i guess i only make you feel proud of me once. I really hope i can make you feel proud, having to be a topic between your friends. You had been so tolerance towards me. Sometime, i just switched our position. I think back, i am really the one that had been so bad. dear, i really want you to feel proud of me, i really want. But what can i do to be the girl that is different from other girls. I will really try my best.


Love is what I want from YOU
love is what I have for YOU
love is between ME and YOU
Love is just ME and YOU


~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

It's been quite sometime that i didn't blog. *Haiz. There seem to be so much happening that happen to me. I felt that i kind of live a different life compare to the past. I seem to lost a lot of friends. *haiz. class been alright.


JOYCI got to cheer up. :)

:)
deardear's birthday is over. I hope he love what i had done for him. :)


~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

Haiz. I regret for not signing up the PP workshop. Haiz. I am feeling so sian now. NO mood at all.
enjoyed my day today with dear.


~~lailai , yanyan love youuu~~

well, well, well, No comments for a lot of things.

Happy birthday to HYDER!!!!
class outing was fun, e25j was great. *haha. The class bonding was great . I miss a lot of people.
should i pon sch a not. mmm.. but i miss him. How? My mother respect whatever decision i made. dear also respect whatever decision i made. Oh gosh. I have been spending a lot this few weeks. I am eating bread now to save money. :( JOYCI jia you.


deardear Birthday is coming, I'm excited. I just hope that everything goes fine. OK??
COUNT DOWN TO 4 days!!

*I'm am really sorry. I felt that i really have to grow up and be mature. There is no point for me to move my mouth only, by saying, i will be mature, i will change, etc. and give me time. It all rubbish, JOYCI. You have been worrying for your friendship matters, but who know, who understand. You did something about it and you just got to wait for the result. The waiting process suck but theres not much choice left, bu shi ma ? haiz. *

lailai, yanyan love youuu~~