I HATE MYSELF TODAY

I'm currently feeling kind of down now. Its really not my day today. What have I done man, who knows? Who can tell me ? I doubt anyone know, I guess only god knows it. However, so what ? I was alone when I faced it. Yesterday night, things already don't go well for me. I had disappointment after and another. I thought it would turn out to be a surprise but it turn out to be a shock instead. I woke up with aches all over my body, thought of not going band but I still went. Band was alright. After band, I did not keep check of the time as I can't be bother too. I boared the 966, due to some circumstances , I alighted. I waited for the next 966. I boarded the bus with some disppointment and I decided to alight at the bustop whereby I can change the bus to go to interchange. Soon I reached that bustop, I do not know what was in my mind at that moment. I board the wrong bus; 154. Only when I board the bus, i then realised that I had boarded the wrong bus and instead of going to the interchange it headed to my house bustop. I left no choice but to alight at my house bustop. I crossed the overhead bridge and took 31 to head back to interchange. The ' lucky ' me board the 31 bus drove by a attitude bus driver. I had no comments. Soon, I reached interchange, I was full with sadness, anger and more.
How stupid can YOU be ? JOYCI TAN MEI YAN. Its just a 20 min journey to the interchange , well maybe 30 min including the waiting time. YOU took more then an hour to get back to the interchange wasting your money. You just top up your card with 10 dollars plus and you end up 7 buck in your card. What is wrong with you man, the impact was so great to you that turn you into such state ? You only got to realised that you left your file and reed in the band room just now too. OMG. you are REALLY A no comment person. *haiz.
That all for my ' lucky day ' .


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BBQ & finale ~~

Updates of me..
Yesterday, W16F BBQ was held at East Coast Area C pit 19 ! It was really great seeing everyone of us enjoying the food and bbqing the food. Earlier on, a few of us went to prepare the stuff for the bbq. Its great, uh ? People started to come as time passes by~ Da ge, ning chen, shuai ge, xiao bai and etc . The food arrived soon and we began to start on the food.I love you guys, man. I just want to bring up certain people for yesterday..
Spencer ~ organising such great BBQ ..*hugs
Cheryl & solo ~ kept some food for me from i am away .. *hugs
Dage ~ First time sharing food with us! =) *haha
Minky ~ Walk with me to toliet and chat with me when I am feeling bored.. : )
Wong ~ tan mei yan is HERE! haha.. hughug. Your smile and you make me feel blessed.
Rena ~ eating the pasta together uh ! WE FINISHED it. Thanks for having the thoughts to give me a free ride home.
Ningchen & Minli ~ Thanks for cooking the food for us constanly. You guys rock..
Faiz ~ Thanks for preparing those wonderful foods. The fruits!!! OMG. so healthier.. haha
All the others ~ I love you guys too.. hughughug.
I reached home this morning at about 6plus am. I slept at 7pm plus and woke up at 2 pm .
A note to w16F
The day that most of us are least looking forward had arrived. I know some of them might be looking forward to the new class. I am really going to miss the fun we had in class for the past half year. People had been telling me, why are you feeling sad and looking back ? Shouldn't you look forward to your new classmates, new classroom, new facilitators and most importantly the new fun you are going to have with them ? Sad to say, I really do not know. Maybe I am afraid to accept the new upcoming new challenges.
Anyway, All my classmates please take care . I will miss you guys .
hugs and kisses.

Tiring day ..

Today was a tiring day. I woke up at 6.51am this morning. I went to a temple which I am not sure where it was located. My sister and I went off at around 930am, we went to the nearby market to had breakfast together with my father. I reached home at around 1045am. I could not take it and i went to lie on my bed, i fell asleep shortly. I woke up at 12pm, together with my mother and sister, we went to the temple behind my block. We reached home at 130pm. My handphone was not with me all those while. I felt rather uncomfortable about it, but due to my forgetfulness that my punishment. I called HIM, we agreed to meet at PS at 4pm sharp. I left the house at 2pm, my sister and I went to toa payoh together as she wanted to get herself a pair of shoe. I went to take the train at 4pm, i thought that i would be late but I was wrong. I was considered early. We met up with rena too. We walked all the way from PS to Far East and when after our dinner we walked all the way from Far East to PS. I had enjoyed my day with my DEAR today .*hugs. I shall stop here .. I have school tomorrow..

**I had really fall for you.. **

My saturday was so boring. Oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KY !!! : ) .. This morning, I woke up at 12pm so its considered that I woke up in the afternoon. After I woke up, I ate my late breakfast. I switched on my laptop and checked my mail, friendster and my blog. I was feeling really bored at that moment. I had nothing to do, so I went to friendster and started looking at testimonal that people wrote for me. I played games and it did not cure my boredness. Soon, I had my dinner. I went to meet HIM. We went to a nearby void deck to drink coke LIGHT and root beer and ate cookies. We sat somewhere near rena's block so we called rena to join us. However, when we called her she was at ang mo kio. She reached at about 9pm plus going 10pm. We chatted awhile and stayed until 10.30pm. Well, maybe the later part of my saturday was not that bored.
Tomorrow I will be going to two temple. I will have to wake up early, which I do not wish to. It is SUNDAY. *haha..

CONTINUED ~~
W16f a class that is full with laughters. I admire the strong bonds of the class. You guys really make my day everyday. Time flies, outings, talks and the previous BBQ was great. We all had great fun , didn't we ? The upcoming BBQ, we are going to double the fun alright ?
~ to be continue ~~

That's all it.. :))
** I can't ask for more.. : ) **

'taking a break ' ~~

I'm currently ' taking a break ' in Mac today with rena. *haha. There were a lot of absentee today. I woke up at 1030am this morning. Today is math module; I don’t have much interest for VB. I really cannot understand how the program works. From what I heard from Spence, hyder went off too. *haha. I will be meeting Jason later to teach him POA and I think I am going have a hard time later on. *opp. Suddenly, I felt like writing about my special class. It started off . . . . . .

I came to a class that consisted of 24 people. There were people from different background, different races and different personality. I recalled; the moment I stepped into the class I felt so worried. Cheryl and saf were my first two friends that I had made in W16f. I got to know the class better through MSN. MSN had been a great program that helps to bring everyone in W16f together all this while. Am I right? I remembered for the first few days when we started school. Almost the class was chatting in one conversation. That was so memorable and interesting. Complains and gossips were all inside the conversation. A huge group of people going to the canteen and eat as a whole. The unity and the bonds were so special. There are no words that I can describe the special bonds of W16f. Whenever there is talks or outing, someone would shouted to the class. We hoped that the whole class could attend the talks together. W16f is indeed a special class compared to all the other classes. ~ to be continue ~ . There’s really more for me to write but I shall put in it into parts and on 23/08/06 itself it would be the finale. So do keep an eye at my blog.

I shall end here.

Smile : )

pleasant day~~ : )

Today was a pleasant day. The problem statement for today was so related to us. *haha. Da ge, xiao bai, rena, spence and me went to shuai ge's hostel . The rental fee is quite reasonable, $300 per month inclusive of electricity and etc. Its quite alright, uh ? After viewing his hostel, we went back to class to continue for our ppt. Overall, i think our team had done well today. Before presentation, julia came to our team and allocated slides to each of us. We were shocked and she was also surprised that we didn't know that it was the new system she had came up with the during previous lesson. The whole were absent for the lesson that why no one knew about it. *haha. Julia didn't give me any slides, she asked me to be sum up the team presentation. I was so shocked and surprised that i was being chose to do so. I was so nervous and i tried my best to present. I hope i had did well for today. After lesson, rena and spence accompanied me to the canteen to meet miao to had a meal. We went off after we finished eating. *yawn. That's about it for the day..

** I'm once again STRONG!! yeayea.. smile always : )**

i admit i'm WEAK !!!

*haiz. For once, I admit that I am WEAK ! I was late for UT today. During UT, I was feeling a bit uncomfortable. Its hurts. I thought the pain will disappeared itself after a while, however the pain still exist since yesterday night. I called my mother after UT asking her if i should go and see doctor. I waited for your call in the meanwhile i went to the cafe to find miao ling and after a while spence came up to find us too. Soon , my mother called. I have to travel back myself alone. I felt rather sad and down while i'm on the bus maybe its due to lack of sleep and the pain. At that moment, i'm weak. I alighted from the bus and waited for my mother at the bustop. When she arrived, we took bus to bendemeer road. I went to my family's doctor. The moment i stepped into the clinic, I felt really uncomfortable. It's really for sick people, the atmosphere.*oh man. Thats the reason why i hate to see doctor. It is because the atmosphere and the people there make me double sick. My turn to go in, i saw the doctor i smiled. I told him how i felt for the past few days and etc. He kept reminding me not to eat this and that. He knew i will only take my medicine if only they are pills. So he gave me different types of pills and currently its in front of me. *boo. I just took my medicine that would cause drowiness. I 'm going to sleep soon.

**Sorry to make you worry for me again .. I admit this time i am really weak .. *hugs**

Thinking in process~~~

Today was a interesting day. *hmm. seem like the introduction of my RJ . *haha. Someone came to meet me without gel on his HAIR but its just a few mins only. I wasn't late for lesson today. My dear bought me flu medicine, i ate one when i reached the class. I felt a bit uncomfortable at the beginning but after a while i felt better. The whole class went to the library for the 2nd and 3rd meeting. After the 2nd meeting, my team went up to the cafe. After cheryl and spence played pool, we settled down and start to do our research and presentation. The cafe was a 'nice' place, we had a great time there laughing. *haha. "table 5" ~~ "table 3 " ~~ hahah.. We went back to one of the room at the first floor and do our ppt. After ppt, everyone went off. Rena went off without her wallet, when i called her. She was already at the woodland MRT control station. So i went out of RP and pass her wallet to her. She tried to walk back in the meanwhile i also tried to walk toward the direction of the station.*haha. At the end, i met her at the traffic lights junction. After passing to her, i walked back to the library. I went off at 5 plus with spence and yea. =) That's about it today.

**I didn't know .. Well, i will do something about it.. Thanks for your trust and I LOVE you.. **

Sick .. But strong ME !!!!!

I’m going to blog about yesterday’s happening. ~ 12 August ~

Yesterday, I woke up at 12 plus. I had been visiting the toilet every 15 min.* Haiz. My mum went to get some kind of Chinese medicine for me. Initially, I thought its pill so I didn’t bother much, however it turns out to be powder kind of medicine. Trust me, it taste really bad. Can you imagine some dark brown powder being mixed with water? *omg. I was being forced to drink it. After I drank, I went to my bedroom and rest for a while. I messaged Spence and told him that we shall meet at around 445pm. However, when I was about to step out of the house, my stomach started to ache, so I left no choice but to go and visit the toilet. It was terrible. *sign. I didn’t tell him where we are meeting, so at the end we met up at PS mrt station. I reached at around 515pm. **I’m so sorry to keep you waiting, dear !! **. We went to meet up with Cheryl and her bf at citylink. We waited for a while and we headed to the esplanade together. It was only 6pm when we reached esplanade. Its really early uh ? We went to buy some stuff and settle down at 6plus going 7pm. Its still consider early, so we played cards to kill time. Miaoling joined us to watch the fireworks too. She had a hard time getting her way through the crowd so as to find me. She was lucky that she managed to find me at 9pm sharp where the firework was going to start. So we managed to see the fireworks together. Its really very nice and beautiful. After that , we tried our best to get out of that ‘danger’ zone and crossed the road. Miao went to find her parents and the rest of us went to eat. Me and Spence went home after that and Cheryl and her bf went to watch midnight movie. Yea. That’s about it for yesterday.

This morning, I woke up at 10am. I went temple with my mum and my sis. We went to had breakfast and went home after that as my flu IS making me very tired. Nooo worries.. I’m STRONG.. : )

**I’m a lucky gal**

Tired~~~

Today was an extremely boring day for me. The moment I woke up this morning, I felt unwell. *boohoo. I took train to school instead of bus. Having to think about the overhead bridge to get to the bus stop, I decided to take train to school. On the train, I was feeling sleepy so I slept. The moment I woke up, I’m already at sembawang station. A few more stops and I will be reaching woodland station. When I reached woodland, I called miao. I waited for her and we walked to school together. It’s been such a long time since we walked to school together. Well, I’m slightly late for class. The math’s problem for today is about VB! * OMG. I really find it very difficult to understand this topic. I went off during the 2^nd meeting with Rena as I am not feeling well and both of us do not have much interest in today’s problem. We went to toa payoh interchange and Janis called. She joined us at LJS and we chatted awhile before Rena went off. After a while, I had Janis went home separately.There were so many absentees today. *boohoo. *haha.

Flu is seriously killing me. *haiz.

Tiring day ~~~~

Yawn. I just reached home now long ago. Today wasn't a good day for me.*boohoo. After today's lesson, I quickly finished up my RJ so i know that i would not be able to do it in the night as i would be hanging out late. While i am doing my RJ , someone went missing. But in the end , the person came back after i had done my RJ.*haha. I am suppose to go home today as uncle sam is coming to my house for dinner and drink with my dad. In the end, I reached home late. When i reached home, i rest for awhile and went to bath. I left home at 8pluspm and i went down to the coffee shop to find my dad and the three uncles. I went to meet spence at one of the bustop and went to take bus to go to esplanade to meet hyder , rena and cheryl. However, due to some circumstances we missed the fireworks. Due to the traffic jam, we had to alight a few stops before the actual stop and start walking to esplanade to meet hyder and all. We went to had our dinner at carl's junior. I, cheryl and her bf, rena and her gf went home. Spence, hyder,wong,jan were tonning around that area. So sorry ,i can't ton cause if i ton i am afraid that tml i cannot join you guys to watch the firework. Yawn .. I'm currently very sleepy and tired. My eyes is very pain now and my throat is so dry. EEEyer . I hate the feeling now. *haiz. i miss yu !!

** SORRY..SORRY..SORRY..SORRY..SORRY.. **
**I am blessed to have you, thanks dear **

smile : ) )

Tiring day ~~

Yesterday, i reached home about 12 plus am and i slept at 1 plus. The concert was great and well played by him. After this concert, by right all of us were to go for dinner , however they went home as they were too tired. They left me and wong to wait for spence. We went to had a drink and wongwong had her dinner. After that, we send wong to the bustop and we went home.
NICE CONCERT ~

Today was a tiring day for a lot of people. Wongwong, desdes, rena, me and spence, however i guess the person that is the most tiring was spence.*Awwww. Today's problem statement is quite alright, having to work with rena, cheryl and da ge. I had fun working with them. The three of us were really crazy today, we kept laughing. *hahaha. After the lesson, left me, spence, wongwong,janjan and hyder in the class. I was waiting for miaoling from 4 plus to 7pm, i am so tired. Around 545pm, the classroom was locked and i went to find miaoling in the library. She was still with her math facilitator. So i decided to go to the canteen to find spence, wongwong and the rest of them. When i reached the canteen, they were starting to go off . Spence accompanied me to wait for miao, he was so tired and yet he had to accompany me. So poor thing, sorry dear ~ . I felt so bad and gulity that he had to waste his time and wouldn't rest at home. And yet he didn't even complaint. *oh man.. Thanks and sorry ..
I reached home about 8 plus, the bus journey today seem to be so long. However , i had enjoyed the journey together with him.

** hughug and Thanks ** :)

The Special Night : ) )

Sunday.. Family day. My family and I went to bishan to have our breakfast. I did talk to my father today, however is just a few words. Well.. Yea. I will try to take the first move again. I promise him, I will. Hmmmm…

Well, let me blog for the later part of yesterday.

August 5, 2006. . A night that I will not forget..

Yesterday night August 05..
I went to meet him at 8 plus. I was late, I admit partly my fault. *hee. We went to esplanade to watch the fireworks. It was so crowded, packed with people. However, we still managed to walk through and at last we stop at one spot to wait for the start of the fireworks. The place was full with people, a glance at the esplanade were big groups of families, lovers and teenagers. It’s really nice watching the fireworks with your loved one and special ones. . The firework was so beautiful, having him by my side to watch with me. I felt so blessedThe fireworks last about 12-15min long. *hmmm. After the fireworks, we went to have a sit. I reached home at around 11.30 pm. I went to have a rest and when to bed after sometime.
That all for the SPECIAL NIGHT ..

A boring day !

Hey, I'm currently feeling moody. The reason is because i'm still having a cold war with my father. I haven't been talking to him for the past few days. Sometime , I really do not know what is wrong with me. I want to talk to him but I just couldn't bring myself up to talk to him. Well, after I told my friends and him about the cold war between me and my father. All of them gave me the same advice,which is ask me to take the first move. Haiz. I got no comments. I shall just not think about that for the time being, as it making me headache. Whatever it is , I promise i will do something about it as soon as possible. Headache is attacking me the whole day. I'm going to see firework later, i'm sure gonna like it . It all about it .

** A boring day ~~** smile : )

yea yea :)

Today was a fun day. I wasn’t late for school for the past few days, I’m so proud of myself. Well, unlike someone who is late.. Blah~~ *HAHA.. I had not been feeling emo for the past few days. Well, things are no longer the same. Well well well…
Today’s lesson is very interesting. We do not have to do ppt for the 3rd meeting, cool uh? It was a relaxing day compared to the others modules. During the lunch break, me, janis, desmond, hyder, Cheryl, Spence, huihui, rena, dage and a few whom I can’t recall (sorry) went for a talk. The talk is about tourism management. It is my dream to study that, I am sure that hotel line is what I really want.*hmmm. After the talk, I went back to the class to wait for miao’s call. I went down to meet Khairil first and waited for miao in the old canteen. After eating, I went back to the classroom. 3rd meeting started, I was feeling really sleepy at that point of time. That’s about it for the day . I’m feeling rather boohoo now. * take note ~ NOT EMO.. haha..

**''''In Love With You ''''' tells it all..**

: )

hey, sorry for not updating my blog for the past few days. For the past few days, I felt quite emo. I had been thinking alot and just wouldn't bring myself up and be happy. However , all those had past. Yesterday night , I saw your mail. You finally replied my mail, i didn't realised that you were online all the while. You told me to look forward to the night as you might be coming online, but you disppoint me. *bOO.
Today, I didn't go to school. Thanks to all peeps for the concern for me ! *awww*hughug. Even though,I didn't attend lesson today , I still had a tiring day. I went to meet jason toh at 6plus going 7 pm to teach him POA ! Didn't manage to teach him much as he is so POPULAR that his friends came to look for him after every now and then. JASON TOH. WASTE MY TIME !!! haha.. Dinner tml on you !!

** Beautiful love .. I can't ask for more .. **
smile : )