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wat a relax day.. for the past few days i was so sad..because of friendship..haiz.. but lucky there is a friend of mine tt help mi to feel better .. thanks.. i dun really knw hw i am able to manage to get over.. but really thank him.. ask mi not to cryhaha.. anyway he make mi feel really much better.. <-- 1910... anyway this few days hav been very busy thinking about MONKEY thingy..mi vexed bout it.. but i and the HE = monkeys.. had thought of a good way to solve the prob.. wow.. that really great.. hehe.. happy happy .. this week i hav been going to sch early to tok to friends.. staying at home to sew a special thingy .. haha.. other than tt i dun hav anything to do le.. erm.. yayay.. haha.. hoping that i can get my new phone asap.. but i dun knw wat hp model i wanna .. i dun knw.. but i just wanna get a hp asap.. haha.. k write next time.. BB.. *muAck -JOy

WHY.. !?!

haiz.. such a long time that i did not sign in .. haiz.. i feeling very bad and sad.. after today math paper.. i really become another person.. i also dun knw wat i .. myself thinking.. i m sad about hw i did for my math.. after math i will be having poa paper soon.. even though is on monday.. but to mi .. i doubt that there is enough time.. for mi to study and so on.. but eventually wat other kept saying was aiya still got so long than poa paper which is two days away from now.. im afraid .. i m not ready.. i not afraid to tell anyone .. but will anyone out there trust my words.. i can say NO ONE.. or maybe there is .. is that i nv notice.. i try to follow my friends trying to say true still got so much time to study wat is there to be afraid of.. but soon i hav say this .. i will not feel good.. as for myself i dun think there is.. even there is .. it isn't much .. again no one believe in mi.. actually for now i m already freaking about poa.. people say joyci you sure can wan lah .. hav confident .. but no one in the world knw tt i can hardly gain confident.. my aunty said you can wan .. is just that you lack of confident.. i knw tt .. a lot of people told mi .. carven.. yong kiang.. bunny.. puay san.. my aunty.. chai ming.. bing xi.. and a lot more.. but true to all .. i find it differcult to gain confident .. this might sound stupid to some of you there.. but tt mi.. as i told my friends.. i hav try a million time to gain confident in watever i do.. but hardly i gain everytime when i do something.. i dun knw myself too.. and so who knws.. when i got mad .. crazy .. feeling sad.. feeling down.. who can i really turn to .. the same people who are most of the time busy wif their studies .. and so i can no longer turn to them so often.. for example today .. i am sad abt my math and worry about my poa.. i can turn to no one.. writing here really make mi feel better.. cry that what i can do .. i dunno .. sometime i will think of things that shouldn't be thinking. make mi think more.. make mi worried more.. make mi sad.. i dun knw whether am i now stress up or wat.. maybe .. perhape..i dun wish to .. i mean no one wish too.. is it this all about sch life.. being stress up .. worried about exam.. worried about result.. and worried about wat parents reaction after taking a look at the result ?.. i dun knw.. PLS tell MI.. if anyone knw.. haiz.. think i going to end here.. and BB..